Blah...I am totally feeling blah. You know that feeling you get after a huge event or when a stressful situation finally ends, that's where I am right now. I just want to sit and watch tv (not think), avoid calls and do nothing. Blah. I know, totally not possible... This has been a rough month, and my stress is lessening.

I know, there are so many great things in my life for me to be thankful for...I know I am very blessed. But for today, I just want to mourne the past and tomorrow I will start moving forward again.

On the upside, my nephew came over today and nudged me to go walking. We all went walking and the exercise made me feel a little better. I need to do that more often.

Sleep like a rock? I think not! It took forever for me to go to sleep last night!I kept thinking about some serious situations and issues currently involving close people in my life so I wasn't able to turn it off like I normally would. Then, I awoke to the firing of a handgun. I rethink, was it five, then two shots? I saw a truck next door with it's lights on so I knew that if something really 'bad' happened, my neighbor would let me know. And, I wasn't going to go outside after hearing shots. Later, a thunderstorm came and lots of rain woke up my dog, who is deathly afraid of thunder. So, she whimpered for quite a while. For some reason, my toddler decided to wake up as well. My teenager was 'feeling lonely,' so she crawled in my room on the floor with her comforter (more noise.) The one thing I did not hear...was the alarm clock! Maybe, I should say, I ended up sleeping like a ...pebble!

My friend died today. Just a few short weeks ago, he found out he had cancer and now he's gone. This last week was hard for him and he was in a lot of pain; they had stopped treatment of any kind as his prognosis was not good. It was a good day to die...there were thundershowers and heavy rain in our area, but then the sun came out and the day brightened. I'll miss you, Jim.